I have not lived this lifestyle and not had any sexual contact with anyone for 15 years. I am attracted to bigger taller older stocky hairy masculine men. Father figures, who are sincerely kind and loving. Not a baby thing, but I long for a loving and more aggressive father figure and son dynamic, I would imagine, would always be a part of the sexual relationship in the bedroom. I think I am more of a bottom, but would I am sure in my playful moods and with love, want to intimately top my best friend, my partner and my lover.
I am complex I suppose, and told I am funny - and I know it, a goofball, but can be easy breezy to intense. Smart but no genius. Yet I can sometimes be so clueless. I love many things, but also want to learn and enjoy what my partner, "my dad," loves too.
I've operated very successfully on a pretty high level professionally (in a worldly sense) but no question - due to many life events, I'd say I've been crushed in a sense, and I am pretty broken. And tho I should have checked out, I am still kickin and trying to get back to a life of love and joy.